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We’ve all done it and said it. “I’ll do it later”.
Sometimes a moment comes along and if you don’t grab it then it will slip away.
In other words, sometimes ‘later’ never comes.
Over the last few years I’ve struggled with health issues. The life I had been working so hard to build seemingly began to crumble. Heart issues, Uterine Cancer and a vehicle accident that has left me with a mucked up back and pain that is now a part of my life.
The toughest aspect was the depression that once again reared its ugly head.
I felt like I was in a sinkhole and the harder I tried to get out of it the faster I was going down.
I stopped the fight and lingered for a time as I floated on a sea of despair.
The ‘Why me?’ and ‘I’ll do it later’ crept into my mindset once again.
The thing of it is I despise feeling this way. I’ve come too far to let all I’ve worked for just fade to black.
Time to take that chance…fly without a net.
You’ll never know unless you just say ‘YES!’ to now.
I’ve not been posting very often these days…I know.
I’ve been transitioning in a big way. Trying to correct some of my behaviors and inevitably some of the choices made as a result. I am seeking remedies to assist in getting back on track.
The last few years have been tough with regard to the health issues and yet I know that life can be like that. There are no guarantees.
As stated previously, I sold my home of six years back in late April 2016. I then found my new residence. For six weeks I bunked with my daughter.
I’ve been in the new place for just over two months. I’m still settling in. I had family members who were ill and found my free time spent at the hospital.
This mindset that I’ve been experiencing is strange though. I’m a bit loosey goosey.
With all the medical tests now out of the way the prognosis is clear.
I’M GONNA LIVE!!!
Best that I get to it then. The leaves on the trees outside my window have gone from lush green to yellow and gold. Time to hunker down and finish up a book or two.
I’ve been puttering about the house, trying to get a few much overdue projects taken care of.
I curled up on my sofa last evening with a glass of red and checked my email. I then checked my blog.
I’ve not been as engaged with my writing lately as I would like. Not too sure as to why. All I can say is this has been a year with many challenges.
I began to read some old posts I’d written. Perhaps they would inspire me as I’ve been in a bit of slump with pretty much everything it seems.
I read about running on Friday morning’s and my heart ached. I want to get out there once again. Then I read some excerpts from when I was training for the BMO 1/2 Marathon.
The initial goal was mapped out and then came the health issues. A fear had begun to creep in around that time and it is all chronicled. From the initial feeling that something was wrong, through the tests, through the triumph of the race followed very swiftly by the devastation in learning the reality of my condition.
“You’ve got Cancer”.
At times it is difficult to read some of the things I’ve written on here. There are many drafts that I’ve never published and I won’t. They’ll be removed now. These were the proposed posts that really captured my fear.
The fear that was never spoken aloud or acknowledged during treatment.
It was the fear of having my life cut short by this thing. What happens to you psychologically can be just as devastating as the illness itself.
This blog has been many things and I am preparing a post to celebrate a very important milestone.
Lately though, I’ve been looking back at just how far I’ve come over the last five years or so and I realize too that I’ve only got this moment.
Best that I use it fully, completely.
The Blue Moon on July 31, 2015 taken from New Westminster, BC
I was off to take photographs with my group of the Celebration of Light on its 25th Anniversary!
August 1, 2015
A lovely sunset preceded the event.
The point of view is from the Burrard Street Bridge which overlooks the West End of Vancouver. The boats are gathering for the festivities!
Let the show begin! This production was put on by Canada. A team from Winnipeg put this baby together. and they would have the honours of being the best in show!
An explosive delight!
Magnificent colours! It doesn’t happen often, however, no breeze was on hand and a cloud of smoke soon formed over the barge. Our vision was at times obscured.
Despite this, the show was fabulous! I am learning more and more regarding these type of photo sessions. I had a blast!
Dynamic and dramatic!
I hope you’ve enjoyed this photographic journey. It was a pleasure to behold!
In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “All About Me.”
I chose this title “The Power of One” for one reason only. To affect change of any kind in this world it starts with you. It begins with your attitude, how you move through each day.
Do you acknowledge the homeless guy you see each day or do you walk past him?
If you see someone in tears do you stop and ask if they’re okay or do you look away?
These are simple shifts in awareness. Solving any issue begins with accepting the problem and how it came to be there.
Of course, the remedy is never easy and can be quite complex. Still working toward making this world a better place has become a big part of who I am.
And surrendering to a loving and forgiving heart was how I began this journey.
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,500 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 42 trips to carry that many people.