A full moon beams down on this clear and cold winter’s night. Fog is beginning to roll in and the moon will soon be a silvery shadow if we see it all.
It is New Years Eve and I am staying at home this year. This will be a quiet night. A time to reflect on the year that was.
I’ve got cheese and wine as well as beer. I’ve got a blanket wrapped about me. I’ve taken in a movie and am watching the televised celebrations in downtown Vancouver. I like that they have it on T.V. now.
As the countdown began I raised my glass up and shouted Happy New Year! I made phone calls and texted as many people as possible then watched the fireworks display before going to bed.
2017 had begun with a sense of desperation and an overwhelming exhaustion carried over from years prior. I began the year by withdrawing from so many activities and organizations I’d been involved with.
Still I recognized that depression had once again settled in. I was isolating myself. All the insecurities and yearnings once again tossing me to the curb with all my perceived inadequacies washing over me.
I found it difficult to post any of my writings last year as well. A notebook is always with me ready to record anything that I need to purge onto the page, however, those ramblings were often sad and coming from a dark place inside me.
I thought of Gloria Vanderbilt talking about how the rainbow comes and goes. I’d read that particular book in 2016 and there are a few passages that resonated with me and still do.
Mid-year I began to emerge from this bout of depression. I am focused on the new job I began nine months ago.
I’ve started a new book. I am hoping to have the first draft completed by Spring 2018.
I need to become more disciplined and dedicated to my writing. I’ve got so many stories I want to tell. Time to get to it.
I am focused on my health as well. The vehicle accident back in 2015 mucked me up big time. Now I need to just try and find a level of fitness that I can maintain. I need to continue to work on my emotional well-being as well.
Time to get to it.
I hope that 2018 is a stellar year for everyone!
Happy New Year!