I rose early.
I’ve not done this too much over the last month since I’ve been unemployed, however, I wanted to attend the Pan Pacific’s 28th Annual Christmas Wish Breakfast.
So with a book of poetry (local) and a movie gift card in hand, I stepped out into the dark of morning at 6:20 AM.
A fat full moon hung in luminous beauty on a velvety black sky as rows of white and red headlights blinked in unison in the pre-dawn along the highway.
I wanted to wish the gang at Rock 101 all the best as well. I really appreciate listening to them each morning. They elevate me. They are so warm and open.
And wow! It has been a while since I’ve watched the sunrise from downtown Vancouver! I watched as the Lions now sprinkled with snow turned a beautiful shade of pink just prior to the sun flooding the sky.
The line-up at the Pan Pacific was long and that’s cool. All of us in attendance were there to give back to those less fortunate. May everyone have a blessed time over the holidays.
I will be making my pilgrimage to BC Childrens’ Hospital again this year. Notification will go up today.
And it was such a pleasure to meet Willy and Kim. They’ve been a part of my mornings for a very long time along with Alyece who I met earlier this year.
It’s been a tough one.
Now I’m turning my focus toward all the good in my life. all the little things that make my life a little happier, a little more bearable in times such as these, a little more joyful.
And yes, the gang at Rock 101 does contribute to this factor along with my friends, and bearing witness to beautiful sunrise. It also helps to know that life will always have its ups and downs. Your character can well be measured by how you manage the pitfalls in your life.
For me, I keep this heart of mine full to bursting with all the love that it has been afforded. Indeed, I’m truly blessed.
I’ve a daughter who in many ways saved this soul of mine. I turned from a path of certain self-destruction to one of redemption and accountability.
And my god, the power of forgiveness!
To let go of the grievances that have plagued me, to rise above the hurt and pain, and release the the fear.
To grow and expand and realize int really isn’t about me at all.
It is about my connection to everyone and everything that I share this planet with.
Its about respect, about love, peace and the human experience.
At Toastmasters I’ve been informed that my speeches touch them on a very deep level.
I am humbled. This moves me in ways you cannot imagine.
I have fought through the challenges of presenting my person and move toward wanting to make a positive impact and truly make a difference in some form.
I’ll keep trying. Rick Hansen asked this of all us back in 2012 that were invited to run with him. I take this request to heart.
I just finished a delightful salad at The Reach and I’m feeling incredibly emotional. It’s a good thing though. A release of sorts.
Sometimes reminding myself that I’m part of this collective we call humanity is overwhelming.
I want to embrace and discard all the pain and suffering in this world as unreasonable as that sounds. I want to ensure that everything will be okay.
The fact that I’m here, alive and pushing toward life, demanding that its essence fill me…
Knowing that I am loved.
Is this not the greatest gift?
So I’ll keep on, keepin’ on.
Expansion will come the more I immerse myself with this world that surrounds me. In manner that is positive with no expectations.
I can only offer…does not mean what I give will be accepted.
And never is there any remorse or ill will that what I offer has been rejected.
Know it will always be there. What has been offered will never be removed.
That is the truth of where our humanity lays.