Last Saturday I attended Claire’s baby shower. I am so very excited for her! She is totally warming to the idea of motherhood now and getting rather giddy to boot.
I could see that there was a little fear in there too. I wanted to tell her that this is a very normal response.
When the idea of a new life being born to this world hits a new mother, it can be a very powerful experience mixed with every emotion imaginable and a boatload of hormones to boot.
Claire will be just fine.
I then got to thinking of all the wonderful people I’ve met since I began writing in earnest, Claire being one of them.
She is one of the first people to have read any of my work.
I had joined up with the New Westminster Writers Group in early February 2011 which was a critique group. I hunted about now wanting to find another group that would provide additional information on the whole writing thing. I found the Vancouver Writers Social Group and joined in March of 2011. They would get together and discuss various topics. I liked this and found it was the balance I was looking for.
While I had written all my life I can say in all honesty I really didn’t know anything about it. When terms such as ‘steam punk, fan fiction’ and the like were bandied about I had no clue what these were. So I listened. Claire offered to give me some feed back on the memoir I had begun so I sent her the first chapter then met with her a week later at a coffee house near her home.
I was prepared to be critiqued. After all this would provide additional guidance on this project I’d begun. She looked at me rather resolutely and stated “I really like how you write. You could possibly have a best seller here.”
I was absolutely stunned by her comments.
And it occurred to me then that perhaps I was good at this writing thing after all.
The year of 2011 was a year of major breakthroughs on so many levels.
What I’d previously considered impossible now held merit and plausibility. I needed to explore this further.
2011 was also a tough year emotionally. I was stepping up to own those painful truths that I had denied for the better part of my adult life. I was taking chances and stepping out of my comfort zone in a big way. I discovered that my ‘comfort zone’ is simply what I’m used to, what I know and what I come to expect. It can be a very stifling place to remain in.
Stepping outside of this mindset was the best thing I could have done to assist in my personal growth at that time.
I had to break down a few walls along the way though.
There were opportunities aplenty to change my mind and return the mediocrity of what I had known. I teetered on this point several times.
But finally it was time to find out what was indeed on the other side of the mountain and my curiosity pushed me over the edge.
2011 was the ‘All or Nothing’ year.
I just wanted to feel again. I didn’t want to over analyze or question…I just wanted to experience this life fully and without inhibitions.
And I remember the night I started to write the book in true sincerity and with vision.
I’d chatted for years about penning a book. There were many starts of fictional novels. I started a journal back in 2004. In a light blue duo tang folder I put a package of 200 line sheets in it.
On the over I wrote “Welcome to the Human Race: With This In Mind”.
It took me seven years to write 100 pages of longhand.
On that January night in 2011 I reached a serious crossroad. I’d been out with my friend Kathy and we’d had a conversation that would ultimately resonate so deeply that it propel me to change how I was living my life. That evening I sat in the corner of my bedroom where the computer was originally set up and with a glass of red wine in had and pile of notebooks and such decided it was time.
By July 2012 I’d finished the first draft.
And it was meeting so many other writers, Keith, , John, Gareth, Amber, Jonanne, Perry, Peter, Sonya, Issac….just to name a few that propelled me forward wanting to improve my skill set.
Claire’s initial affirmation was a major boost for my confidence and to continue on.
In the last five years I’ve finished and published my first book. I’ve posted about 540 articles on this blog of mine and am developing six other writing projects. A trilogy of the fantasy fiction variety exploring the evolution of the Written Word; an erotica fictional novel with the exploration of how we arrive at our sexual preferences at the core; a murder mystery and of course a romance.
This should keep me busy for a couple of years. I also started my own publishing company and do hope to work with other writers as well.
Like all newborn’s there will be few slips and stumbles along the way. That’s how we learn and grow.
I’m looking forward to meeting Claire and Denis’ little one. Soon…