The thought occurred as I was escalating up the escalator.
“You gotta move like Gumby, move like Gumby…you gotta moooooove like Gumby!
I have been telling myself this quite a bit lately. “Just move, girl. Just get up and move. Walk, dance, do something!”
When did this become so freakin’ hard?
I’m having to reschedule when I ‘move’ and I definitely need to do it more often.
The new job has found me with my head in the books pretty much the entire day. Oh, I take bathroom breaks and run up and down the stairs from time to time and feed myself when hunger occurs.
I’m working in an industrial park with a lot of green space around me, however, with only a half hour allotted for lunch I can’t really get a good walk in.
But perhaps a 15 to 20 minute power walk could work.
I’ve decided to get up a half hour earlier to do a brief workout in my living room. It’s a start. I am running with my group again and it has been brutal.
I’ve finally accepted what my body has been trying to tell me for the last six months. “Slow down and start over.”
I was talking with Deborah who is one of the run leaders tonight about this. Both she and her husband Peter have had health issues over the years and it’s tough. You just want to get over with being ‘sick’ and get back to your life.
My head was convinced that I could just pick up where I left off and I think I really wanted to believe just that. The last six months as I have tried to just push through the damage caused as a result of treatment I have finally conceded that fact.
Yup, it took a little while to sink in. I don’t always want to see what is glaringly in front of me.
I really wanted to treat the whole cancer debacle as just a minor inconvenience. I have accepted that it was little more than that. I have accepted that physically I’ve taken a bit of a beating. And I’ve accepted that regaining my health is going to be a little painful for a while.
So it’s back to the beginning. I want to move like Gumby. I want to be all twisty bendy without the feeling like the tin man.
And I shall!