Catch Phrases

I went off the pain killers yesterday.  I was getting a little too ‘medicated’ for my liking.  Yesterday afternoon I fell asleep on the sofa late in the afternoon.  Trying to wake up proved to be a bit of a challenge.  Keep in mind that I was only taking T3’s…one every four hours.  The medical staff encouraged me to go with the program.  I did. I need to let the body right itself now.  The indignities that I have celebrating lately are indeed curious.

Of course, being a polite person, I won’t name these indignities.  Let’s just say that as humans, we all have these functions.  That I have been celebrating their return has been amusing at times, but yes, there have been a few high-fives around here lately.

I had thought writing would be as forthcoming as it usually is.  That has not been the case.  I will be tapping away at the keys then suddenly find myself lolling into a state of nirvana.  When I waken, I find the screen now covered with pages of letters that the fingers relaxed into.

Chuckling at this, I pressed delete then closed the computer down.  This has happened a few times.  The thought process has been fleeting. I was checking my email and saw a photo of a VW Van.  In psychedelic, flower power lettering along the side of the van “Make Love Not War” was written in brightly shades of neon.

Of course, as you know I am seeking a catch phrase for my person that will identify me in the same manner that. others enjoy.  Am I asking too much?  Perhaps it’s the drugs talking.

Think of Mr. T.  And what is his catch phrase?  I pity the fool that doesn’t know that one.  My generation really embraced the whole catch phrase phenomenon.

“Have a Nice Day” accompanied by a yellow smiley face was the all the rage.  The new generation now believes Forrest Gump wiped his sweaty face on a towel and uttered those words for the first time.  Not quite true, kiddies.

Still the sentiments that were being shared at that time had a sweet innocence to them.  I really want to embrace that mindset again.  I don’t want to become a cynical nay-sayer who sits in condemnation of the world before me.  I think for a time I was that person.  Not a fun place to be.  I want to know the pleasure of each day despite the hand that’s dealt to me.

Why not?

I found out yesterday that chemo and radiation will be required.  I may be bald for a bit.  Now understand that this is purely a vanity thing.  The hair will grow back. I’ve heard that if you do a buzz cut then it will grow back thicker.  I’ll have to ask my salon about that.  Perhaps ask a few people who do shave their head on a regular basis.  In any case, the thing about these treatments is the fatigue factor.  I was encouraged yesterday to continue with my workout routine and running once the body heals but that I may not be as energized during the treatments.  That’s okay.  The post-operative stuff will take about 3 months.

I am going to do a brief meditation now.  I want to drop down into my heart centre for a bit.  This particular journey isn’t completely over just yet. And I am determined to listen to the body and the lessons that are being imparted.  I am determined to listen to the spirit and set it free.  I am determined to live.

Be well friends.  Namaste.


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