I had a fabulous run this morning. I didn’t sleep well but then it seems as of late the battle of wills occurs when I slip into bed. Then I have to really work to achieve the quiet mind and even once sleep claims me, the fight is carried on into the next stream of consciousness . Dreams have been reflecting my anxiety regarding these recent rounds of events. Even though only 4 1/2 hours sleep were attained last evening the need to run and find that connection, an affirmation to the living world held a deeper level of need.
And so as I greeted this day in all its glory I decided to do one of my first routes plotted out when I moved to New Westminster and began running again. Today’s run was right up there and reminded me why I love to do this. I got to thinking about many things this morning.
I am excited by the though of how much more energy I will have after the surgery. I will just soar and I’ve never let myself do that before. And with that thought I began to contemplate a few things I have been working on over the past few years. I did a workshop a few years back and one of the exercises was to write for 5 minutes how we would look if we were truly happy and content in our lives. We had to write down how we would dress, where we would be living, what type of work we would be doing…and we needed to add as much detail as we could.
I wrote furiously and managed about two pages of itemized detail on what ‘happy’ would look like on me. Next we shared this with the group. The last part of this exercise was rather telling. We were asked why were not in the state of happiness that we had just described.
Oh, a plethora of excuses sprang to the surface. I could easily have bemoaned the circumstances of my life with just cause but then the light bulb really went off. It was quite simply my attitude that stood in the way of achieving the state that I so wanted to be in. Change that and just see what comes of it. I took the bait.
I have read about the Law of Attraction. I have listened to tapes about secret societies that hold the key to untold wealth and power. I have researched these secrets and then I stopped and wondered why I found all of this rather tedious. In truth, I don’t seek extreme wealth in monetary form. I have no desire to own an estate on every continent. I have no need for ten automobiles and a yacht or two.
I would like to be a successful writer and be able to earn a decent living from the proceeds. And I will realize this.
There is an awful lot of talk about the law of attraction these days. It started with the book The Secret. Like many of you, several years ago I purchased it and attempted to apply what it spoke of. Nothing changed. Last year I listened to some tapes that stated the powers that be removed the truly beneficial information as they felt ‘threatened’ to some degree on what was being disclosed in this particular book. Hence, The Secret remains as such.
Then I got to thinking about the whole power thing. Power is one of the most misunderstood entities on this planet. Too often it gets confused with control. Beating the masses back into submission by means of using fear tactics does not grant power to the instigator.
Power is knowledge, it is love, it is selflessness, it is surrender. Power is standing before this world in all your vulnerability and accepting it as such. Power is a quiet force that grows and spreads to like-minded individuals when it is released and shared. It cannot be coveted and has no monetary value. It is simple in its subtlety and yet when understanding begins to form you will see it in its honesty.
We talk about the power of natural forces. Indeed. Wind is without question a powerful entity. It can rip down a forest or stir the seas up to boiling. We are in awe of this, yes? And we cannot harness its random nature, but we can learn from it.
And so I will continue to grow and find that quiet power within. I will surrender this to the world, to the universe. What comes back to me feeds the spirit, feeds the heart. As this cycle continues, what is received is offered back and so a balance is found. The life source flows naturally and unimpeded.
Thinking on these books such as The Secret, I liken it to the American Dream. We are all being sold one vision when there is an infinite kaleidoscope of viewpoints to choose from. You just have to find the one that fits. I also find it interesting how the introduction to these things starts by having the potential customer being asked to ‘imagine having wealth beyond your wildest dreams…”
It is a current phenomenon I am sure. Yet, it’s what we are instructed to go after. It will make us happy.
This morning I was reminded on my run that I am still very much alive and still very much a part of this world and that made me very happy. And I am going to allow myself to have this.
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