A slight altercation in my workout strategy this week. On Wednesday evening I had my writer’s group meeting and it ended early. I got to chatting with John, one of the members. We discussed future projects and a host of other topics. Finally he said he had better get going. I looked at the time and it was 1:24 AM!
Yes, I can be long-winded. I know that but I didn’t think that it was that late. So I scratched running on Thursday morning and moved it back to the original Friday slot. This morning’s run showed improvement. I did my 5 km route. At the beginning it felt really awesome and I debated doing my 6 km route.
‘No…listen to your body and don’t push it!’ I warned myself. There is a rather steep incline on the 5 km route and I walked it out for about a minute in that area. For the most part I felt the strength coming back, though I have a ways to go. I am hoping that the race this Sunday goes well. It is a run around the Seawall in Vancouver. The only incline is at the end. The last 1/2 km is uphill. Rather cruel, don’t you think. 🙂
My breathing was not as laboured as it was a few weeks ago. I found a really nice Zone 1 pace this morning and I will try to incorporate that into my run on Sunday. I was also fasting this morning as I needed to go for my blood tests. So that was the other factor in taking it really easy this morning.
Ah yes, happily only four vials of blood were removed from me. I had thought that perhaps six may be taken.
When I entered the building a pale blue sky was peeking out from the clouds. It was quite mild out and dry. When I walked out of the building 1/2 an hour later there was a hail storm. Fortunately I was wearing my wind breaker that has a hood on it. The hair suffered a little but not too badly…and I had the hair thing going on today. Is it a sign?
Then I got to thinking about just how tough I am and what that means exactly. Somehow when I think of being tough it has an air of impenetrability to it. That somehow I cannot be hurt or maligned. It surprised me with this flu bug that I picked up just how quickly all the hard work and training reduced my efforts dramatically.
I also got to thinking about the publication of the book. I had an incident occur at the writer’s group meeting in that one of the members commented on the actual style of the book itself. Now he probably joined when I was in the mid-way point of my book. So he has never read the first part. First he told me how a book should be structured than likened my book to a comedian who never comes through with the punchline. That I wasn’t providing relief, I wasn’t summarizing.
Now this writer’s group is about reviewing the work that has been offered up and offering insight into the flow and the various components of the characters, and in my case me. Does it work? How might it be more effective? That type of thing. In fact, the original guys that I met when I joined just over a year ago helped me immeasurably and gave me such insight and perspective into my project.
So I have been pondering how to respond to this. It occurred to me that perhaps he just doesn’t like my writing or the topic or both. And I told him this. I explained that this book was not for everyone. It was strange because I realized too, that with publication I am opening myself to criticism. For the record, I have always posted a warning to my group members if a chapter is particularly raw and graphic. The thing about this weeks submission is there was a lot of humour inflected into the telling of this event. That I suppose is what had me mystified. There was a vagueness on his part of articulating his point, which is odd for this particular individual. Then he just seemed to shut down as I inquired further as to his meaning. “That’s just my opinion.” was all he offered.
An odd tension arose that I was a bit confused by. And as I thought about it later I decided it’s not really okay to slam someone’s format for their book. Now I have to decide how to approach this. This group is not about dictating how a book should be set up. It is not about whether you like the topic or not. I would prefer someone be honest and tell me they find the subject matter disturbing and don’t wish to participate in this particular project. I am totally down with that.
I suppose too, this fellow is an educator and has been in publishing as he pointed out ‘for 23 years.’
Again I was left with the impression that somehow he feels he is more knowledgeable in this area than I am and that my work is somehow inferior.
I suppose that I should expect such things though when I publish this, and I will publish it. So I will have to implement some rules regarding the critiques that are offered up in group. I am a co-organizer after all and I am ‘tough enough’ to take this on the chin.
Understand too that I only have a Grade 10 education. Yes, I went to a community college for a year as a mature student for accounting, but much of my education has come from reading. Do I know all the nuances of the language, all the technicalities? No. I have issues with tenses…that has become apparent but it is this type of feedback that has made me a better writer as it has been brought my attention and dually noted.
Should I take a writing course on such technicalities? Well, in truth it really doesn’t interest me. I think the best way to learn is to read and write. My command of the language has improved incredibly in the last seven years or so and will continue I suspect.
Part of the conversation I had with John later was about certain books that are considered literary masterpieces as they are written for scholars by scholars. While I have tackled some of these they are at times difficult to read and somewhat intimidating at times. They are held up though in their perfection and hey, I won’t slam this at all. After all it is a glimpse of the language being mastered and I truly do appreciate this.
My point to all of this though is simple. Just because someone has more education does not grant them the right to dictate prose and structure to others. After all, this also a creative process.
I am tough enough. I realized that about self. I will publish this book. I will finish my race even if I have to walk at times. It is after all about the journey and what I learn along the way.
Have a great Friday everyone!