I had a really good workout this morning. Actually got to the gym a little earlier than usual and really kicked it. I have really been looking deep inside self these days. I was thinking about my 12 week optimum health plan that I started at the beginning of the year. I did quite good on it. Then I came to the end and of course chastised myself for the times I did ‘slip’ up and vowed that I would repeat the cycle and do it right this time. A funny thing occurred though. What I realized is that I really had not ‘slipped’ up. I had merely indulged, quite enjoyably, in foods and drink that I don’t typically ingest on a day to day basis.
And I had not been extreme in my indulgences either. Yet I, like so many of us, somehow viewed this as a ‘failure’ on my part. I viewed it as a weakness. I know the difference now between emotional eating and just enjoying a good meal. Emotional eating is symptomatic of deeper issues that need to be addressed. When we eat emotionally we are usually trying to fill a void in our life. I know, I used to be that girl who could pack away two pizzas in one sitting. I didn’t enjoy it, to be honest. It always left me feeling worse, not better. Of course the result is weight gain and possible health issues to compound the issues you are already facing. It can and does become addictive. I shudder when I think of how I used to eat and how unhappy I was.
It has been a long road back and I have learned so much. I value and respect the body that houses me more than I ever have before and I am amazed at the resilience of the human form. I will continue to learn and grow and optimum health is ongoing. Once I reach a certain level that does not mean I will ‘stop’ being healthy. I won’t ‘stop’ running, I won’t ‘stop’ eating well, ‘ I won’t ‘stop’ being active…and I won’t ‘stop’ going out and enjoying meals with friends and delighting not only in the fare but the fabulous company that I am so often blessed with sharing.
So why do we put time limitations on things anyway? It seems that when we do this we actually set ourselves up for possible disappointment. If we do not reach the goal we have set for ourselves, do we succumb to failure and return to our old patterns? Whose to say the goals we set for ourselves are realistic…or not?
I will not enter into another 12 week optimum health plan.
I will enter into optimum health plan for life. I want to feel my best, I want to look my best, I want share the joy that I feel with everyone. That is the goal then. One day at a time.
As I left the gym this morning it was snowing Cherry blossoms. Beautiful pink blossoms had covered my little car making it look like a little steed dressed in all its finery. I tossed my bags into the car then walked over to get my coffee. It had been raining and now the clouds were beginning part and a water colour sky was emerging.
Cleo raised her head as I approached the coffee shop. Her beautiful brown eyes gazed up at me so serenely. I knelt down as I always do and gave her a good dose of affection and reminded her just how beautiful she is.
I chatted with Richard a bit while waiting in line then headed back to the car. I had taken a Cherry blossom off the car on the walk down and now released it into the air. As I was driving the short distance to my office….it likely appeared that confetti was being thrown off the car with all the blossoms now taking to the air.
One day at a time…each one to its fullest. I can do that.
Enjoy your day.